Scars

Five years ago I had started cutting myself. I was feeling low and lifeless. I was feeling broken and unloved. I just wasn't feeling anything good. I felt numb to things on the outside and on the inside I was dying. So, I decided that I wanted to feel something on the outside.

Not only that, but I felt like my parents were controlling everything in my life. I had no freedom. I couldn't have space away from my parents because I was under their watch 24/7. I could not stand feeling like I was trapped and had no control over anything. So, I started to feel like I had control over something because no one would be able to stop me from cutting.

What did it do though? Did it help me at all? Did it change the situation?

It did nothing, but give me scars. I mean, yeah, it felt "good" for the time being, but it wasn't doing anything. It didn't come close to helping me, just wounding me even more. It changed the situation for sure! For the worst. I got even lower and felt like everything was going to get worse. I didn't see anything good coming from the situation.I just kept making myself worse physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I was getting low.

I quit cutting about half a year ago. And it has opened my eyes. I aint as low as I used to be and I can live life without being depressed.

Guys. Harming yourself doesn't help at all. You can't hurt the temple that God made. You are God's and He doesn't want you to destroy yourself. So, instead get some help and talk to someone. Pray to God and poor out your heart on how you feel and what is happening in life.

That's it for tonight, y'all.

God bless!!
Philippians 4:13